Almost two years ago, I wept at my computer while writing this post about my cousin Michelle, who lost her mom and her unborn baby within days of one another. I told the story in the book as well, because Michelle has been to me such a clear example of someone who grows more beautiful in the most difficult battle.
When their sweet baby, Layla, was stillborn, they said sad goodbyes and buried her in the arms of her grandmother. Layla was the second baby they had lost that year.
In Romans 8:28, we are promised that He will work all things together for the good of those who love Him. That verse does not actually say that He works everything out for those who love Him – but that He works them together to make us look more like His own dear son.
I’d like Him to fix everything. To fill all the empty places. To repair all that was lost. But the promise is that He will fill us and repair us. He works sorrow into beauty inside of us, even when the circumstances don’t seem to agree. Even when our dreams seem to be delayed or denied. He is at work.
He is building and creating and weaving His purpose into our lives and sending rain to our thirsty hearts.
Sometimes, however, His work is not the way we hope it will be…it’s better. It’s exceedingly, abundantly, outlandishly more beautiful than we could ever have scripted it. Sometimes, in fact, His work is so good, that we experience a great rush of relief that He never let us hold the pen.
Look what was born onto Michelle & Kirk’s battlefield this fall:
Welcome, Miss Andrea. You are a long-awaited miracle.
If you or a friend have suffered the pain of losing a child, I highly recommend the book, See You in a Breath, by my friend, Stephanie Nelson. It’s just $2.99 on Kindle and it’s filled with raw truth and real gold mined from the shadowy valley.
How is He turning beauty to ashes in your life today? I’d really love to know.