I have had a remarkable week. It has been as full and beautiful as the preceding six weeks were desperate and ugly. Some of the reasons are easy to identify – I survived a minefield of paperwork and red tape, the administrative necessities that accompany death. The headaches have finally been relenting. I went back to work, which I love. All good things, but not good enough to account for this stunning increase of peace.
Peace, I’ve discovered, doesn’t actually diminish grief and that’s okay because I’m not looking to be free of grief. I think the Bible is clear that sorrow tethers us to the presence of God in a way that few other things can. Grief is my journey right now. It’s the weight that reminds me that I was the luckiest girl in all the world for 30 years, 5 months and 16 days. Healthy grief is good for me; I’m not going to pray it away. I am, however, quite desperate to be free of fear – and that’s the power of His promise of peace.
Today I feel peace. I feel beauty in the season and the weather and in the switch to a fall wardrobe and in my heart. I’m not going to worry about how I’ll feel tomorrow. Today is enough for today.
With hope,
Bo
“Don’t imagine yourself in the future,because that is you,without the grace that He will provide for that specific time and circumstance.” You are loved! Shalom and Blessing’s,dear Sister-Friend. Sue4Him :)xx
Amen…peace in the midst of the storm is awesome and powerful!!! Love you Sis and so proud of you and who you have become. Greater things are yet to come!
Grief honors that which was lost, it is a blessing to have had such a gift, such beauty, that to loose it breaks the heart and leaves a hole. How blessed we are that we have one that comes along side of us and tends to us so carefully, that He numbers our tears!
Love!!
Hi Bo….My husband John & I were baptized this morning & I saw you sitting there & it made me smile. We feel so blessed & loved to be a part of Westside & we couldn’t thank everyone enough for giving us the gift that we received today. It couldn’t have happened at a better time. Please know you & Your family have been in our prayers for quite some time & btw I absolutely love reading your blogs!
God Bless
Debbie 🙂
Bo~ so thankful you are feeling sweet peace. So thankful. 🙂
So beautifully stated, as always.
This is so descriptive and right on: an older person’s take on grief: http://www.thatericalper.com/2015/08/16/person-is-asking-for-advice-hn-how-to-deal-with-grief-this-reply-is-incredible/ Blessings, Bo.