Have I told you my “every minute” story? If I have, I apologize and you can be excused. If I haven’t, I think it’s worth telling.
The day after Steve’s diagnosis, I sat in my favorite chair in my office at home and tried to convince myself the room wasn’t spinning. It wasn’t the room, it was my life. My hope. My expectations. Everything was spinning. And spinning makes me feel sick and scared. In that moment, I was worried about everything. Steve. Money. Kids. Ministry. Friends. Everything. And it seemed like one fear just naturally led to the next fear and then there were three more waiting in line behind that one. Finally, I let myself do the crying I had been staying away from for 24 hours. In the middle of that storm, I could only hear Jesus saying one thing, over and over. It was faint at first and then it got louder and louder until finally I opened my lap top (yay, Old Blackie!) and started writing those words: every minute, every minute, every minute.
I wondered what they meant. Maybe that He would be with me every minute? Nope. While I knew that was true, I also knew that wasn’t what He was saying. When I set my fingers on the keyboard again, the words tumbled out: “I have already been to every minute you will ever face. I have been to your future and back and I have built provision in every minute where you will need it. You won’t see it now, but it will be there when you get there.”
I thought about that for a bit and then realized: I had everything I needed right then…in that minute. So, I wasn’t worrying about that particular minute, I was worrying about all the minutes that would come. And I realized: He goes before me, so I never go anywhere first. He already knows where the days will lead and how the road will turn, and He has placed all the supplies we will need along the way. I’ll see it when I get there.
Now – two months later – I’ve run into some of the provision-minutes and I can see the obvious evidence: Jesus has been here…and He left His fingerprints all over the place.
Loving the God who goes back to the future,