I am currently living in a sliver-like gap of free time between having turned in my manuscript and getting it back from my editor so I can start on revisions. In related news: editing is hard. It’s easier for me to start with a blank page than to remodel a written one. When editing, I sit down and get up from my desk an average of seven times before putting my shoulder to the wheel and doing the work of rebuilding sentences. Think I’m kidding? It goes like this: I need a snack. I need a sweater. Now it’s too hot. Why are all the windows closed? It’s like living in a crock pot. Who in the world could think clearly in a crock pot? I forgot my charger. I need a little writing music. Not that music. Why is the music so loud? I can’t write to music. I need snack.
Having said all that, I’m excited about this book and it’s not because I feel any more confident about the whole world loving it than I felt about Beautiful Battlefields (I’m perennially insecure about my own abilities). The reason I’m excited is because this book is dear to my heart. When people watch our lives and say, “How do you stay steady through this battle?” this book is the answer. While writing it, I felt like a police sketch artist, listening to Isaiah and Abraham and Job and Joseph and Jeremiah and forming their portraits of our beautiful God into words that I dearly, desperately hope are worthy of His character.
When I land in dark spaces or deep-water days, some line or chapter from this project inevitably shoots through my emotions, injecting truth like medicine into the jagged wounds of life.
“…but the people that do know their God will be strong and do exploits.” Daniel 11:32″
Here’s what I’m convinced of, friend: God longs for us to know Him. Just like we long to be known and loved by those dearest to us; He longs for us to pursue an understanding of His character. I’m freshly aware of how painful it must be for Him when we shake our fist at the problems we think He caused or treat Him like a vindictive, volatile taskmaster. I’m also convinced that this ignorance regarding His ability and integrity (aka: bad theology) is why so many Christians are stuck in bitterness, frustration and purposelessness, especially when they face a Really Big Battle.
So, I’m excited. And hopeful. And breathing a bit before working hard. Pray for me, would you? That I would stay closely tied to truth and represent Him in a way that is clear and compelling. I’ve never felt more inadequate for a task (or more honored to have the chance to tackle it.)
A million thank you’s,
P.S. Street date for the book is early January so now all my friends know what they’re getting for Christmas.