This is my London calendar.  Maybe I’ve mentioned how ever since we visited in 2004, London has been near and dear to my heart.  Josiah got me this calendar for Christmas and I love it.  It hangs in my office at home and I love all of it…and yet it’s still on January.

I noticed it this morning and I realized:  January is when everything stopped.  While the final and official diagnosis was in February, January 11 was the day that Dr. Goslin told us that Steve finally met the criteria for ALS (long story how that all gets figured out).

It’s fitting that my calendar is stuck here because I think that maybe I got stuck here.  Stuck in a spin – if that makes any sense.  Since then, I have worked hard to keep running as fast as I can…trying to outrun the process that I know will eventually catch up to me.  I have tried to quickly convert grief into growth and losing into learning.  I have distracted myself pretty well, but the jig is up.

Today will be my last post for April.  I am going away with Steve and we are going to pray and plan and write and dream and feel the sand between our toes.  We will rest and laugh and breathe.  We will be the people we love most being when we’re together.  I cannot wait.

And when we return, I will turn the pages to May and make a new normal, because life goes on and love prevails.

With hope,

Bo

P.S.  I highly recommend my pastor’s new blog for your reading pleasure and also this one by my friend, Jim Stephens, and this very fun blog by the ever-lovely Annie and  this beaut by my friend, Helen.  Also, my husband will still be posting during our getaway.

 

2 Comments

  1. I love you friend. So glad you’re going away. Have a sweet time together. Show love you know what it’s all about. 😉

  2. Bo, our arms are wrapped around you, Steve, and your family in an Holy Spirit embrace. Praying your away time is sweet, memorable, and o, so, restful.
    Be blessed. We love you guys.